Been off trying to cheer up. I do feel somewhat better. Life isn't rosy but it's not nothingness now. Things are stressful isn't it amazing how that can compound those sort of things. I wouldn't say I'm past it yet and as my title implies I don't think it all over but it's improved.
Life has been very complicated. Good news and bad news and sometimes it's just stressful news. My son, Nic, is giving me the horrors, the latest being that he's talking of marrying his girlfriend. I can't say much. Wed younger, with less education and knew his Dad less time so really what can I say. I can tell him be sure this is what you want and need because it's forever in my mind. Yes, there is divorce but that is a terrible way to go into marriage. For me abuse and cheating are the only thing I'm not sure I could overcome in forgiving forgetting or finding a way to live with. Both deal with more than just me and him, death would be possible, yes even with the cheating! I just want the best for my kids if she makes him happy and is what he wants and loves then I support him. I will always worry about them. I hope if he does propose I can really show him that it's not disapproval over his choice. He still seems so young! I can't help but think it stupid of me but there it is and I guess that is only normal for a parent.
My daughter, Maggie, just makes me crazy. She and I are so different I just don't know if we will ever understand each other. I hope so. She is just so much more like her father. I know she disagrees but it's not in the actual ideals it's in the attitude and the my way is the right way they have. I admire that trait even if I don't know how to deal with it in my child;)
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